it HIT me..

Floating from the mock of sadness.. How can a simple remark, act and mime can make me feel this way.. It felt so downcast, it felt so pensive, it felt so hurtful, and it felt so forlorn I often teach myself to let go, stay far and feel nothing to get none of this.. But there it is..embracing me, killing me and slashing my heart to death. Stop.stop.stop. Three words often on my mind. Shouting, screaming, begging.. But I can hear a vivid whisper, a sound so small but the only sound that soothes the pain.. Tame my heart and stops the hurt. The voice I want to hear. The eyes that can lie but can melt my anger and pain. The mouth that alleviate the outrage The touch you’ll long, hope and wish forever.. How can a sensitive and romantic one can make you feel insignificant? And continuously do it in the most innocent and casual way? Stop.stop.stop. I love you… Disarmed… I understand. I will accept. I will stay. I love you.